After and excruciating year
I felt my heart break for the first time and I’m not speaking figuratively to a point where I had to stop and breathe, the next thing I said after that was “Wow that hurt”.
The day my life changed
I was at my best and worst
I was happy and sad
Days were too long and nights were too short
I can’t even describe how excruciating and unbearable it is when emotional and mental pain turns into physical pain, I spoke to God, I prayed, I yelled, I cried, I questioned everything. Everyday was different. When I say I couldn’t breathe, I literally mean breathing was difficult.
I had to be honest with myself and understand that I couldn’t be around people, I couldn’t hold conversations, I was always in my head and emotions.
I had to take a step back and then one day
I started to laugh again
Dance again
Sing again
Believe again
For my mom to look at me and say my daughter is back… That made me realize that I really wasn’t in the best space.
Days are still different but I know it gets better… Because God is God and he is in control.
In the life of a rose 